Moving On, Moving Faster, Stronger, Better, Still Always on the Move.

Hello Dear Ariya, no time for pleasantries I'm afraid as I have a lot to get through. Lots of changes for me in the last few months so ill get straight into it.

Moving On

 So the time has come to move onward, it been a lovely year but my current flat has become a little cramped of late so with the help of my new fox friend (more on her later) I've found a super new place to live. It's a beautiful new house, with a huge kitchen and a wonderful garden! it's incredible and its the same price I was paying so its win-win! Daddy is very, very happy.  

Living Area & Garden!

Cooking in Style

The only downside is its a bit of a way out from Daddy's work, so to combat this new distance I have bought myself a new toy. A super-fast road bike! and not only that it's a hybrid electric so every hill I get to I just zip up it like a rocket! my new house has a bike shed in the garden and is right next to a bike path so I have been zipping into work in no time flat! not to mention keeping fit, I used to run to work every day but again thanks to my new friend, I've upgraded to the fast lane.

Super Electric Road Bike of Wonder!

 So I'm doing really well, I have a fantastic new job and have made a ton of new friends, One friend ( or Fren as we now say) Is Connie, she is a beautiful and brilliant person who loves animals, mainly Doggos, she really likes Lush soaps and is an amazing singer! she loves all the musicals! so you don't have to worry about daddy cause she is taking really good care of me.

Daddy Duck and Connie Fox

Few, Daddy is exhausted, i told you there was a lot to get through, and i promise you there is so much more to come, Hippo has been very busy too! You be safe little lady and know I'm always thinking of you.

Love Always

X

Your Daddy

Words and verse to aspire too.

If you grow up, to have half the values that this song has, then i will be a very proud daddy. If the world forces you to be something you are not, then the world is wrong. We are capable of change, but only if its what we choose, never let anyone tell you otherwise.

Be kind

Be Respectful to Others

No matter Race or Creed

Cause no Harm

Be Happy.

I forgot this, somewhere along the line i got losses in my own madness. i was scared and i didn't know who to turn to. I've changed into a better Daddy because i remembered what's important.

X

Your Daddy

I'm Still Standing.

This is something that makes daddy feel proud of who he is, and i want to share it with you.

Still Standing, Still Thriving, Still Winning.

I promise more soon my dear one. But for now, I'm doing great and I'm always thinking about you,

X

Your Daddy

Where in the world has your daddy been?

Answer: Daddy has been super busy, he has done so many wonderful things over the last month or so and it has been really hard to find the time to sit down and edit everything for you Ariya. So first of my apologies, But daddy is doing so very well. below is just a taste of all the things i have been getting up to.

First off I ran the Another Half marathon

So last time i ran the Edinburgh Marathon to give something back to the people who helped me in my time of greatest need, This Half Marathon was for me, for my own self-esteem, for my own well being, and most important of all to continue the confidence and positive physical attributes i have cultivated over the last few years. I smashed it! Finished in just under 2 hours, was aiming for 1.45, but it was so very hot that day it really took it out of me. It was a very good day.

Medal, Medal, Medal, and My Running Jersy.

Next up was a very special trip to Switzerland to attend a Buddhist Retreat hosted by Stephan Bachelor and his wife Martine. It was a wonderful experience, a week of silence, meditation, contemplation and some of the best vegetarian and vegan food i have ever tasted. It is the most beautiful and calming place i have ever been.

Interlaken - Buddhist Retreat 

True Beauty

Centred.

After a week of hard concentration, I'm not going to lie it was really hard at times i came away knowing more about myself than i ever dreamed possible, It was an experience like no other and has helped me continue to cultivate the positive mindset and mental awareness that has finally allowed me to thrive and grow. It was a very good week.

Dream Job.

And finally, all my hard work has started to pay off. I started a wonderful new job, a dream job, cooking fresh organic, locally sourced produce in a beautiful kitchen. I'm managing a brigade of chefs and its truly a wonderful thing. It has been a very good month.

A lot to take in i know, I'm still adjusting to it myself. But all this hard work has left me feeling something i don't think I've felt for a very long time. so i will leave you with this thought my dear sweet Ariya.

I am a good person. 

x

Your Daddy

You Can Do Anything...

This is everything i have been working towards, This is the line i draw under my illness, all the fear, the self-doubt and crippling insecurities are no more. I will never go back to the way i was, i am healthy in body and mind. I raised £405.00 for Health in Mind, To try and give something back to the real heroes, the people who didn't give up on me. the people who do one of the hardest jobs imaginable, The people who helped me come to terms with my problems, face them head-on, accept them for what they were, and leave them behind in a cloud of dust as i charge and change, ever forward always running towards a more positive life. 26.2 miles is just the beginning. All i know, that now, for certain is this.

I HAVE CHANGED

Proud Daddy

I have addressed my problems, i have beaten them, i have made myself strong, i have self-belief determination and joy, i am the person i should have always been, I am someone you can be proud of Ariya, And from this position of strength i can now focus all my attention on getting back to you, I love you Ariya, Be a good girl. 

X

Your Daddy

10.26

10.26pm December 2015, I first saw the light of a newborn Starr.

I send this light out to you, along with this prayer and mantra, where ever you and mummy may be. It will keep you safe and bring you nothing but love and happiness.

May you be filled with love and kindness,

May you be well,

May you be peaceful and at ease,

May you be happy.

X

Your Daddy

Love you, little one.

You are my beautiful little girl.

Thinking of you dear little one, I promise we will be together again.

“It's hard to beat a person that never gives up.” Babe Ruth

X

Your Daddy

One step forward, Two steps back.

I knew it was going to be hard getting back to you Ariya, I knew it was going to be hard coming back from my sickness and getting on with my life, I never knew it would be this hard. So daddy has lost another job, (this is the 4th one I have lost since I have gotten better) its very very sad because this was a wonderful job, and I loved what I was doing. What makes it all the sadder is it is not from something I have done in the present but by the past coming back to haunt me. In the past, when daddy was  very sick this would have sent me spiralling into depression, but I am too strong now, I won't let this beat me, all I have to do is keep trying and eventually I will get to where I want to be, let me tell you how I keep going, when things get bad, and I feel all alone, when I feel lost and defeated when I feel like I can't take any more, I think of you little one, I think of how much you love me, and how much I love you, I think of where I need to be in order to see you again. And I get back up, and I try again, it doesn't matter how many times you fail Ariya, all that matters is that you keep trying. I will succeed, I will win and I will never give up. When daddy came back he was given a gift by your Nana, your Daddys Mummy, you have met her but you won't remember her, she held you in her arms when you were only 2 weeks old, but she gave me a gift and i want to share it with you, because it sums up everything I'm trying to say to you.

Renewed Hope.

I Will Never Give Up On You!

X

Your Daddy