Story Time.

Hello again dear little one, I am very sorry that I have not been posting more often, but I have been a very busy daddy of late, I'm trying to find a new job and looking into starting my own business so there is plenty to do, its important to me that I post you drawings and stories to show you how much I both love and miss you, but its equally important that I work hard and get to where I want to be in life, I need to have a regular income, a good wage so I can put money away for you and a nicer place to live one suitable for little girls like you. I'm not quite there yet, but I will never stop trying, every day I get a little closer and a little stronger, hopefully, one day my hard work will lead me back to you dear Ariya and we can have hugs and kisses and go on magical adventures in faraway lands. Now I'm going to tell you something about me, I'm a very silly daddy and I like things to be perfect, well I want things to be as perfect as they can be for you, I have lots of drawings for you but they're not perfect, and some of them are not finished, but I'm beginning to realise that, it doesn't matter if they're finished or not, it matters that I drew them for you, with love. so finished or not I'm going to start showing you them, and in the meantime, I can work on some truly special things for you.

Story Time.

I drew and coloured this for you when I was very ill and I was doing my best to get better. You were always in my thoughts and I wanted nothing more than to sit with you and read you a bedtime story. Well, this is the world I created for you Ariya, That's you sitting on my knee listening to daddy tell you tales from The Lands of the Never, Nevetherndar, a place of magic and wonder full of adventure and friends for you to play with. I hope you like it.

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Your Daddy

One step forward, Two steps back.

I knew it was going to be hard getting back to you Ariya, I knew it was going to be hard coming back from my sickness and getting on with my life, I never knew it would be this hard. So daddy has lost another job, (this is the 4th one I have lost since I have gotten better) its very very sad because this was a wonderful job, and I loved what I was doing. What makes it all the sadder is it is not from something I have done in the present but by the past coming back to haunt me. In the past, when daddy was  very sick this would have sent me spiralling into depression, but I am too strong now, I won't let this beat me, all I have to do is keep trying and eventually I will get to where I want to be, let me tell you how I keep going, when things get bad, and I feel all alone, when I feel lost and defeated when I feel like I can't take any more, I think of you little one, I think of how much you love me, and how much I love you, I think of where I need to be in order to see you again. And I get back up, and I try again, it doesn't matter how many times you fail Ariya, all that matters is that you keep trying. I will succeed, I will win and I will never give up. When daddy came back he was given a gift by your Nana, your Daddys Mummy, you have met her but you won't remember her, she held you in her arms when you were only 2 weeks old, but she gave me a gift and i want to share it with you, because it sums up everything I'm trying to say to you.

Renewed Hope.

I Will Never Give Up On You!

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Your Daddy

Run Boy Run.

This music fills daddy with hope, it fuels my determintaion and my boyish sense of wonder and excitment, it makes me want to seize each and every day no matter where it may lead me, I will run, I will fight, I will fly, and I will crow. Your daddy is fearless now, he knows who he is, he knows that he matters, he has his self esteem back and he will never let anyone take it away from him, no what they may say about me Ariya, I am a good man, and this music fills me with hope, just like you do.

I will never give up, Beacue i am strong, stronger than anyone knows. I will run, run fast because it leads back to you, one day, I hope soon.

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Your Daddy

All for one, and one for all.

I will see you again little one. I promise you are never far from my thoughts. I promise I will never give up and I will keep fighting each and every day until we are reunited, even if it takes me the rest of my life, I will find a way. You are my sunshine and I will love you always. sleep well dear one and know that you are in my dreams and prayers each and every night. 

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Your Daddy

Ok, now Daddy is just showing off.

Another helping of what I have been up to this last week, so proud of myself, I'm working so hard for you Ariya, and for myself. This is the best job I have ever had and I am being paid really well, I'm really hoping I will be in a position to send you some money to help mummy look after you really soon, I'm also going to try and start putting a little money away for you each month so that one day you will have the money to follow your dreams :) so, for now, I hope you enjoy the pretty pictures of Daddy's work, I'm showing off, I know, but your my daughter and I want you to be proud of me.

Daddy's Super Pop Up Noodle Bar and Wonderful Salad Bar

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Your Daddy

Daddy loves his job.

Good Morning little one. I just thought it would be nice to show you what daddy does for a living, I'm a chef and I really really really love what I do. Its taken me a long time to get to where I am but I can honestly say its worth all the effort, I love working hard and getting up each and every morning, I have changed so much since we were last together, I have been really busy this week, there is a big event on so we have been working long 12+ hours, its super hard but oh so worth it when we hear the comments people leave about daddy's food. But as they say, a picture is worth a thousand words so take a look at what daddy has been up to this last week.

Fine Dining at its Best.

This is the best job I have ever had, I love what I do and it breaks my heart that I can't share it with you and mummy. the person I am now is someone you can both be proud. I am very proud of myself, I have addressed my problems, worked really hard to get to where I am and I will continue on this path because I know it leads back to you, my dear sweet Ariya Starr. I am a better man because of you. I miss you all.

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Your Daddy

Daddy has been very busy.

Hello, there little one, I'm really sorry I haven't posted anything for you lately, daddy has been really busy, working hard its a very busy time to be a chef and its the best job I have ever had, I really love what I do. Also, I have had to send my computer off to be fixed, however, daddy is back online and itching to get drawing and writing for you again. I miss you so much Ariya, I cant be there to sing you to sleep but I found this beautiful lullaby for you, I love you little one.

I also have a little sneak peek for you, I know in my heart that you will be just like me one day, a head full of dreams and a strong heart that craves adventure and magic, it's not finished yet but its everything I hope you will one day become, you are a child of the Starrs! 

Ariya Starr - My Brightest Light.

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Your Daddy